July 2nd, 2010

Bloody hell...it saddens to see-I mean how should one feel when they see someone older then them seem less mature then them? A mom shoplifting infront of her 4 year old child and to even teach the child how to steal? I am saddened. Saddened that a man of my own generation would have more self-respect and more knowledge to see she is wrong, you have a child your suppose to be responsible and love them. (blurt out this part due to excess language)   But not only that. I need to break out of my social shell. I've been almost isolated from all my previous freinds and I believe I have not done anything with friends since November. Its funny how its the right ones that avoid me...the good hearted, God loving, the sound minded. Its like running from the devils, but being pushed away by the Angels. I am running away from my generations curse, I want to be better I want to follow Christ! But why is it that it seems that his followers spit in my face. Bloody corruption of this world has blinded us. And I am one of a few who have a right eye to see through it. I am alone, in a worldly sense of way, but I am never alone in a Christ sense of way...why can't his most elect see me the way He does...I just want to get back on my feet and go back to walking, why push me down? God grant me strength to bear this.