Is it normal to dream good dreams when one is under a lot of stress. Because I have been having wierd dreams during this present time of struggle. I woke up feeling like a man who came from the sky hitting the pavement with full force and feeling every bone in thier body shatter. For even though in reality I have only visited it once, in truth I have been there unconsciencely 3 other times, in my sleep. To me it is my ultimate youthful goal to go back and live there. And then I believe from there my world will expand even more then just a state, then just one nation..
It was a strange dream, but I was happy during every moment of it. I was nervous for awhile but happy. I was living in Chicago, I would take it but the area I was staying in that it was my appartment. After dressing myself up, slipping my socks and boots, putting a descent pair of dress pants, and placing my heavy coat over the shirt and tie. I jolted off out the door into the cool warm day (just as I remembered it when I actually visit it) And I began walking to a great old friend of mine. When I arrived at the door, her younger brother was there to greet me, he was surprised to see me and likewise I was happy to see him. For her, she was per say "questioning" why I was there, I guess I simply told her I was staying her for awhile. We talked and caught up what has been happening with our lives, then we headed out to the park nearby, taking a soccer ball and a baseball. She questioned if I should play in dressed up clothing, but I just shrugged and went onto playing. It was summer in chicago but it felt like fall to me, it was peaceful, friendly people. My heart was blissful, I wish I could have stayed. We headed back to her home and talked a bit. She said I shouldn't really be there without her moms approval first. I pulled my collar forgetting the impression I could leave with her mom, and so I headed to the door ready to leave. That was until her mom opened the door and saw me, she looked at me shocked then looked around the house and at her children. She screamed at them for not cleaning the house prior to guests arriving, I was frankly shocked as to think she wasn't mad at me at all for showing up unexpectly. But what shocked me more is that she welcomed me in, she was happy to see me there. We all had a great conversation, and she smiled blissfully. It was just perfect. Then night time came and I waved goobye shyly to Em, I still think the same way of her as I did in sophmore year, but she secretly doesn.t know that. I held my coat closely around me, looked into the light filled night and walked home alone....
Chicago is an amzing place, it has such a rich culture there, it has a vast amount of entertainment, good people, and my love is there. All that is really left down here is the pursuit of a cheap education, if I stay down here too long, my heart will whither, I will grow bitter and hate again.
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