July 3rd, 2010:Lukewarm

I hate lukewarm..I really do. Grey is not my favorite color at all, its a bad place to be. My mom, shes really luke warm, my life is lukewarm. And I think I am lukewarm, Why can't I be below 0* or above 180*? Even my favorite color is considered lukewarm, that being green (combination of warm color yellow and cool color blue)..

My life is in an uttermess (hot), but it could be far worse (cold).

I was born and lived my life under bad conditions (hot), but its that bad any more (cold).

My mom has done so much to give us this great life of ours (cold), but sheesh-shes like the spawn of satan often in her thoughts and actions (hot).

I dislike lukewarm becasue its almost like being a poor middle class worker-in that your paying for your bills just barely and have a job. But unlike the poor your not getting any benefits such as food stamps or unemployement checks and unlike the rich, you have no extra money to spend on luxuries. Sad to say but theres allot of people who would rather remain unemployed because it benefits more then landing a job (which I blame those employers who pay thier workers jack crap to do a job that requires 5 men, way to take advantage of an economic disaster you S.O.B's)

I can even admit that my spiritual journey is lukewarm. I hate that I try to be a great follower but at the same during God-striking moments I can be a spawn of satan myself when it comes to being ticked off (easily ticked)
I smile and not ashame to say that I believe in the Lord Jesus Christ, but I am ashamed when my actuions say differently, when my pride stands infront of that. But hey in my defense (even though its pointless to put a defense before someone who is always right) I need my pride, I have gotten tired of being walked upon by so many. I display a sweet Christ-like character so that I could share God's glory, not so I can take a bloody bashing from people who want me to do everything for them.

....but I guess the real over all statement I want to make is..please give me a position of being very numbing cold or to be blistering hot. I don't want to be lukewarm, I hate it- and I don't understand it.

On the side note-thank you to the viewers who have seen this, it has increased my view count by 10, and my view count is actually 104, which means that 96 times I have looked at it myself...so its nice to know I am quite self-centered -_-... then again my blogging does suck.