Tuesday, April 7th, 2015: Potential

Distraction, wouldn't be the word I'd use anymore. Potential, a love interest, there's certainly a lot of potential yet still the circumstances are there which in  due time must be addressed and figured out. But the more I get to spend time with her even if it's over a webcam, the more I find myself adoring her. And yet I can still say I haven't barely hit the tip of the Iceberg, there's still so much to learn of her and so many things to discover together of one another. But what I've learned is that I'm afraid, I'm afraid to step closer but not in that I'll scare her off but in that if I get too close it will only hurt more later down the road. I want to let her in, I want to feel those passionate emotions again, I want this to work somehow even if it crumbles later down the road, I need this. I need to experience this. Even now I yearn to just have the chance to hold her, the thought of her makes me so excited. And still I barely know her. But there's potential.