Sunday, March 22nd, 2015: Whispering reminders

How often must I continue to fight these whispers in my head? Reminding me over and over of my low self worth of what other's are seeing when they're looking at me, they're returning louder and clearer. Reminding me of God's lack of presence, that I am alone, that I'm running out of ways and routes to escape these circumstances, they've grown louder. Ever presenting me with many options of release. Yet logic continues to play these situations out over my head of what would happen should I choose to accept any of these offers. And I have refused them all. But for how long? I'm not sure. They have returned and I need another escape from them.