January 29th, 2017: Mind over Heart , Logic and Love

The heart is truly corrupted, it hungers wishes to devour all that comes within it's path. It loves to love, it loves too much, and I'm not certain if these emotions I'm often left with is in fact love itself. But for some reason I feel a growing powerful emotion for people who really shouldn't matter to me, to people who aren't even in my sphere of life. Beautiful women with beautiful eyes, beautiful minds, such a wonder and in my heart all I feel is this powerful urge to consume them whole, to merge- to be one with them. So many of them. And yet not by my heart but through the thin line of logic in my mind I know the only one who I truly love is the same one I wish to spend each night with alone. My beloved, I don't deserve her and yet I will work hard so hard to prove myself wrong. And yet while I am loved and I also love, my heart still wonders of the many possibilities of life with someone else. I love her but not with my heart, the heart is corrupt, but the mind- my mind it can be trusted. Love with logic, not with emotion.