It would be a damn miracle for something social to suddenly happen. By social I of course mean deep relationships, dating and so forth. Today I was so close to asking....so close... But like the jittery coward that I am I quuickly retreat and don't say a thing. And let the gorgeous gal get away... *facepalm* It has been 2 years since I have been in a relationship and even that relationship lasted for exactly a month. Prior to that it was also another 2 years of inactivity. I feel stupid...I feel horrible...and like most heartbroken women I really crave icecream about now..problem is- I'm a man O_o...and we have no icecream in our house >(
So with the lack of appetite, the exhaustion of work, and the disppointment of cowarding out...I wouldn't mind something out of the ordinary to just happen. The lesson God has taught me today was, that I am a fool- and this whole thing was my fault. "You are in control of your own distiney if you refuse my help" Obviously it didn't go well as planned...I just hope I see that gorgeous girl within the next month.....or before I lose my sanity. Cause being antisocial is really driving me crazy. Its all my fault...damnit
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