April 17th, 2010

Despite seeing the amazing, holy matremony of marriage and its great sanctity....despite understanding the amazing love that two lovers could have. Despite all these great and wonderful heart warming events. For some reason I feel as though I would be happier if this never happened to me-better yet disturbed at the thought of me getting married and how it would turn out. I honestly think its an amazing thing and slightly envy those who do get married...but Its hard now at this moment to see myself in the groom shoes going through all of that. It might not be right for me.