April 17th, 2010

Despite seeing the amazing, holy matremony of marriage and its great sanctity....despite understanding the amazing love that two lovers could have. Despite all these great and wonderful heart warming events. For some reason I feel as though I would be happier if this never happened to me-better yet disturbed at the thought of me getting married and how it would turn out. I honestly think its an amazing thing and slightly envy those who do get married...but Its hard now at this moment to see myself in the groom shoes going through all of that. It might not be right for me.

April 12th, 2010

Question for myself each day :  What did I do today that will help me move out of Tampa Bay?

April 8th

With all that is going on, who needs them? I am better off on my own and I'm still going to pretend I have 57 more years of life left. My only concern is that I get somewhere very very soon. Because this is driving me nuts. I am claiming my career to be the most important thing to pursue right now (esp since everyone else is pursuing something else) But I am still coming short handed on my own statements.