I see...I see an open fence infront of me. There are two sides to this fence- a clean harmony side, and a darkened wordly side. The fence has always been open for me to go out as I please, but it was self-respect, knowledge of the concequence, self-worth, and a bit of cowardness..that has kept me from passing through that fence. My brother has briefly went past it to the other darkened side but came out of it-not caring for the things on the other side. Looking at my younger sister, I fear that passing through it would create a bad influence...but now I plan on crossing that other side and hiding this side from anyone else. The life on this side of the fence...its just not exciting. Plus the people on the lightened side of the fence don't accept me no matter how pure they seem, I am dead socially and don't plan on doing much for another two seasons. So what I am thinking is...what do I have to lose?
God tie a rope around my stomach so at least I know there is an escape. I will do the bad thing and step over to the raving, screaming, howling. drunken, and the rugged side. I am curious-I am bored and tired of the girls of this side of the fence being so..so stuck up! It pisses me off to think that angels are probably going to be this way, with thier ultra intellect, thier sound minds, thier pureness, thier natural beauty and yet despite being one of His followers I end up getting spit in the face by them...When I wanted was just a tiny bit of acceptance from them... Maybe a cheap thrill can help me. I just hope the rope around my waist doesn't get cut or that when God pulls me back, I won't end up being someone else then I was before.
