December 31st, 2009

Change is constant. Wonder whats next.

December 30th, 2009

What is more important to one's life? To be successful in life or to be happy?

December 22nd, 2009

Should I die a strong successful obsessive man or should I die a weak happy married man? Why can't I have both?

December 19th, 2009

It seems that I am in constant search for a salvation, the answer to my one ultimate prayers. I looked for it in many items, people, and places but it all seems at dead ends. I know Jesus is my salvation, but the promise of never being hungry and thirsty again...well it seems unanswered, I am still hungry and thirsty and there still remains a gap inside of me. And I have my doubts that this prayer will become a no.

December 18th, 2009

Goodbye good times of the past, a friendship of decades, and to a thread that held itself together but now must be cut. Its almost official when I announce, I am completely alone now.

December 10th, 2009

Why can't older people stay old. Or basically to the point, act your own age please. It surprises me in what I see often when I am out in public obvserving society and its ways. I often hear childish conversation involving a 30 year old mother of 3 arguing over the phone about cybermyspace drama having a personality of a teen drama queen. Or seeing 60 year old man with grey hair and wrinkles dressed in 15 year old thug clothing, walking like hes reppin some hood. And of course we can't forget the mom who is in her mid 40s dressing in an outfit that is sure to belong to her teen daughter.

Why can't grey hair be looked on as appreciated? I mean when I see grey hair I often see a lifte time of wisdom and knowledge. But now it seems that people do not want to escape thier highschool years or claim no responsibilities to thier own age.
In honesty being around such people really just makes me... feel old.

December 7th, 2009

Thought of the day is going to be mildy altered so I can blog only during days when there is a highly inspired thought. Therefore this will no longer be a daily thing and to avoid it from becoming a jounal entry of the day. I would rather do this so I can avoid coming up with last minute blogs and to lessen the Kirby dancing on random days.


And for my main thought of the day: Once again I have done it, turned down a request to smoke a roach. Not once but several times, in my true defense. I know my own value better then they know thier own.
And even so if I wanted to, the truth is I almost lack in free willl. No matter how hard I try, I can never seem to turn against my own God given goodnature. Even after our arguments and debates, I still can't help but to be good in ways.

December 6th, 2009

Because only I am so lucky to get punched in the face by a complete random stranger whose reasons are unkown. Thank you God for using my horrible luck for your sense of humor. Its nice to know there was a purpose behind that event.

December 5th, 2009

Looks like its back to status quoe with my family life.. I swear I thought we had been through this already but it appears one of our family member will never change thier ways (not surprising). My departure is no longer post poned to summer but earlier. I really do not want to be here when it all falls apart.

December 4th, 2009

Cold weather, rain and a day off! Could my day get any better? Or is it selfishly positive because nothing inteferes with my safe little worldly bubble and I am a man without sympathy or care for what lays outside of it?...Because if thats so I really do question, should I continue it or should I let it go?...Its an obvious answer one that I must act upon

December 3rd, 2009

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Kirby dance

December 2nd, 2009

...........(too lazy to come up with anything)

December 1st, 2009

Apperently it is possible to nuke your PC just using a coke can and a hammer. Though the hammer is the key ingredient in this processs.

November 29th, 2009

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